Forgive as Christ Forgave

Christ forgave me while I was still sinning, still destroying things, still running away. That's the standard. Not waiting for the person to deserve it, not forgiving only when they apologize - forgiving like Christ forgave.

I've been waiting for my ex-husband to acknowledge what he did wrong before I could forgive. But maybe that's not how this works. Maybe I forgive not because he deserved it, but because I've been forgiven by someone I didn't deserve forgiveness from.

I'm trying. Some days the forgiveness is real and free. Some days it's an act of will. But I'm moving toward the kind of forgiveness that doesn't require earning it.